In too DEEP!- a poemstory

Loving, laughing; and believing in happily ever after is an ultimate goal.

At least I hope so.

I’ve never heard anyone confess to wanting anything different.

Life serves up all kinds of cues to what feels right in relationships. What complicates matters is getting in too DEEP!

Let’s keep it real. There’s no denying the moment our emotions outpace rationale.

Heart fluttering, eyes twitching, voice quivering trying to find the right words to express what’s happening on the inside.

But wait! That’s not the person I know in the mirror facing me. I feel no tears but I see them in the lady staring back at me.

Perhaps, it’s too DEEP!

It’s human nature to attach to what feels right.

Acts of kindness, wellness checks, and smile checks.

Balancing the scale of emotions.

Upward spiral. Downward spiral. Stimulating moments of much-valued attention.

The roller coaster flips, speeds, twirls, and screeches to a halt.

Get off girl. Gather your thoughts. Stand still. Find your center.

Immersing ourselves deep into a feeling can’t be practiced. It just happens.

What matters, is how we respond to that feeling.

Getting close is fun in the beginning.  We’re both winning.

But when is close too close as trust gets in the way.

He said. She said. Who said what gets all muddled in a tangle of words that bounces off every secure object in the room.

It would be easier to just walk away and say nothing. Yep! Just vanish.

Independence is lurking in the wind. Life of autonomy is racing through my mind.

The brain is rational. The heart is anxious.

What’s happening? The world spins.

Holy crap, I’m in too DEEP!

 

 

 

 

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